Release [Poem (E)]

A poem,

but not just any poem,

this poem’s bout release..

excavate my feelings

that been buried well beneath..

prolly why

sometimes

I feel my growing’s incomplete

I smile cus

pressure’s been applied &

I ain’t lying

through my teeth

been in a different space

as of late,

mysteriously...

I’m growing on my own

alone,

don’t care’f you feeling me

I challenge the validity of

thoughts, explicitly

& though

I know

love does fasho

exist

can’t trust h**s,

literally

that’s why I’m quick to duck a bih

she say she feeling me,

love feminine company

tho I

can’t take em seriously

illuminate myself

but with selective energy

because I know a woman’s tendencies…

mom’s the epitome

& tho she’s far from perfect

my first person,

still a G

who knew that femininity’d

brew

(such) masculinity?

& tho I stay afloat

while, meanwhile,

other’s on a boat

sh!t, I suppose

in thought,

one day, it’s gotta dock

no hickory

so sh!tten me,

I learned to keep my focus on,

keep working,

& trust that God’s behind the scenes

He’ll bless me if I earned it

& even when you hurt

& when you feel you don’t deserve it

might be worth it,

struggle for some time

to fly

just like a birdie

don’t worry bout what others see

when you do what you do

you gots to follow through

& when the timing comes, be ready

never be that crab that

withholds somebody’s confetti

folk may’ve

treated you like an option

but by that time,

you’ll have plenty.