Who is God really? [Poem]

Who is God really, I just wanna know

Some being cares bout lil ole' me?

Before I take this leap like Geronimo

Do I crash land or will “tender mercy” hold me?

Upon error, does “everlasting love” console me?

I think I know, 'cause I know I ain’t the old me

But when things don’t fall in line like some dominoes

Will He chastise, or is He still the homie?

Who is God really, & will He tattle on me

Expose my deepest struggles and pains?

You can’t cheat me like I got the answers tatted on me

But then again, He says He knows us by name

'cause If I’m being real, this kinda lame, homie

How perfect do I have to be to make it?

My mind and heart motives steady fluctuate

So I hope my love for You

ain’t misconstrued for hatred

Who is God really, is He a Man or Woman?

A question that is having me delirious..

If you ponder the demands of a man,

you'd understand

that man don’t make plans

unless He’s serious.

But when I’m down & out, when I’m weariest,

It ain’t in a man’s nature to console me

not His job,

but it’s something like my Mom

How a God who says He knows me’s

down to listen to the whole me

& piece by piece,

He sheds away the old me

has my mind, heart, & spirit intact

or should I call Him "It" or "She"....

well, whoever IT is,

I gotta tip off my hat.

So if you ask me who’s God, all I can say, dawg,

The Creator with the keys to life and death,

balances the mind & heart like a see-saw

& wraps this gift called life, as we know it,

with His breath.

That’s all I know & maybe there’s more to it

My mind, it cannot fully comprehend

We think our finite minds make sense of everything

& if it don’t

Like Trump,

it’s a “lie from the Left”

Who is God really & can He show Himself?

Is He real, or is "She" living in me?

Will balancing my hearts passions with my mind’s perceptual

reveal to me a piece

of His divinity?

The answer? That’ll probably take infinity,

plus an eternity to finally figure out.

For now, I’ll make the most of what’s given to me here

& wait till Heaven to finally figure it all out.